so here i stand (or sit as the case may be) after spending well over half of the
last two week's worth of evenings holding up the bar or the guard at the house
of blues. i'll admit that at this point i'm feeling my age in some ways and
probably would be burnt out if i was bright and honest enough to admit it. but
the music still calls me for some reason. spending saturday with the vampires
reminded me of where and why this all started for me. tonight, after spending an
inordinate amount of time with the pre-21 green day crowd, i'm fairly certain i
need to be maybe just a tad more selective in my choices. in any event, i've got
something of a two week hiatus now ahead of me, with just a few shows and a nice
weekend trip to the land of mountains scraping the sky and a beautiful little
creek that's helped me center myself from time to time these last five or six or
however fuck the longs its been now, years. so now it's almost been a year since
i started reading a journal and embarking on a journey that would end up costing
me dearly. heh. funny how time flies ain't it? i have to admit i don't think
about it now nearly as often as i did a few months back, but it does come back
from time to time. for whatever reason i felt a little of it tonight ... maybe
it's just the kiddies in the pit triggering it and all .... but oh well. i'm
home now, safe and sound, and early for a change i might add, and it really
doesn't hurt anymore ... finally. lol. it had to happen sooner or later.
anyway ... finally got to play a little guitar this weekend after smashing up
the pinky at work ... new strings, some real practice rather than just fucking
around ... good stuff maynard. so after tonight i'm feeling a little old, and
two lost cavities in my mouth aren't helping much in that department either,
along with the last two weeks of abusing the body, the liver, and the mind. i
think it'll be good to be away from that hell-hole for a week. heh heh. but i'm
not kidding anyone am i? those of you who know me know the obsession .... or at
least that one, heh heh. in any event i'm looking forward to the next two weeks,
light concert going, a couple of days off, and some much needed time spent in
the fresh air with some trout, wine, and a special friend for company .... i
think for the first time in a while it's all looking pretty good ....
good night
... and don't you just love the sight of those thunderheads?
