july 28, 2005 -- 9;45 p.m. 

howdy mother fuckers.

so i'm here in this same chair and in the same place and probably around the same time as i was that i started all this. tonight i'm looking out over some trees a couple of planes in lax's flight path and what i believe to be jupiter. i'd check it out for sure if i cared enough to get my binoculars and check for real. it does look bright enough to be the jovian planet though, so i'm pretty sure i'm right without the magnification.

so how'd you like to be an astronaut? fuckin a' that's gotta suck. oh yeah, dudes, this is nasa calling. another chunk of foam fell off like last time. hopefully you'll be ok. ugh. wish i was there, but glad i'm not. know what i mean? it's gotta be pretty wicked in space, all weightless and stuff. sex would be interesting in space. the 100 mile high club probably doesn't have any members just yet, lol.

so i'm feeling old too. and not just cuz of long hours on the job. ran into some street rats in brea the other night who were somewhat smitten with my kmfdm shirt. didn't know who they were by any stretch of the imagination, but started quizzing me on what i liked musically. let's fuck with the old dude! lol. bastards. they'd be toast in any pit i deigned to join. heh. in any event a flashed devil horn hand sign and a few lemondrops made them go away.

but i still feel old, lol. old old old. funny what a difference a year makes. i'm struggling to hold on to my kewlness, but even black t's don't seem to wear so well anymore, doc's feel awkward, and i don't really miss the shows that much. sigh. i'm fucked up i guess. being dragged into middle age whether i want to or not.

saw a kewl writeup of the supersuckers show i missed in may. heh. at least the little punker from skratch magazine who wrote it thought they rocked (even if they were old and the crowd was filled with 30 somethings). 30 somethings? how about a 41 year old bitch who'll knock your dick in the dirt for a few spins in the pit at a supersuckers show. heh. yeah yeah yeah. how about that?

but i digress. saw the new rob zombie move, devil's rejects ... not as good as the first. also saw johnny depp as willie wonka. he rocked. i should be johnny depp. i'd be more johnny depp than johnny depp is. heh. i'd be hot, skinny, with kewl hair and a total bisexual lux interior thing going on (from the cramps you dumbass if you don't already know). mmm. gothic rockabilly sexy weirdo dude. thats me!

wheee!

anyway, i've gotta go catch some z's, take the clamps off my nipples  (hee hee, just kidding, really really) and go to sleep.

hope you're all still rockin out there ...

snuff