it's raining .... but only outside. for the first time in a long while, shit
isn't bothering me too much. work, anything, anybody. it's all good. except for
my tooth. which needs a root canal. my first. another one of my virginities lost
to old age. oh well. short of the pain at the moment, it's not even that big of
a deal. work seems to be straightening out. sort of. changes will abound soon i
think. just a funny feeling. i think i'm safe though, so that's something. made
some progress on the diet front, although not as much as i had hoped. there's
always next week though. back to seeing shows like there's no tomorrow. ran into
yet another old acquaintance. go figure. so as i suck up another few glasses of
cabernet, look southward out the window at the rain and lights, i don't feel the
same things i used to. i don't feel them, but i still miss them, if that makes
sense. i don't know. that's the one part of my life i have yet to figure out.
the rest of it i know, but just don't always follow. anyway, just felt i had to
write for a change, it's been so long, and i've done so much writing tonight on
other fronts already. i'm going to go turn off the lights now, light a candle,
and play something. i don't know what just yet, but i'm going to play. good
night.
