isn't it
odd? i'm beginning to feel that people and relationships are somewhat like
virtual particles in a sea of quantum foam, popping in and out of existence.
they come, they go, sometimes they return, sometimes they stick around for a
while. it makes me wonder at times if they're really there or not. i don't know,
it's been a weird last two weeks. things may be looking up job-wise finally, it
appears that someone actually likes me! really, really! heh. we'll see, i'm
still not in a very trusting mood when it comes to some things. i've also had a
couple of old "particles" pop up the last few weeks from regions
unknown and unexpected. they also seem to vanish just as quickly. the motivation
has vanished to boot i'm afraid as well. haven't done squat on the computer,
recording, practicing, riding, you name it. still on the concert wagon, and
after falling off the other wagon, so to speak, i'm back on it. heh. time to
respect my self-imposed maximum's again. the band played last night for what
will probably be the last time for at least a month. i know i'll be missing it
big-time by the end of next month. speaking of which i need to go tie up some
caddis .... it's almost that time. haven't tied a freakin' thing since last
august. but i've had other concerns the last six months i guess. so anyway, the
sun's out and i've got some errands to run and yet another show to see
tonight. tomorrow i fix the bike, fix the jeep, tie some flies, play some
music and start it all over again. it's as good a time as any eh?
oh yeah,
and for those of you who believe in more than just rabbits, happy easter.
