april fools day 2006 around midnight

so it's been an interesting month and a half to say the least.  

i had a couple of glasses of moon wine tonight, and it seems i'm not quite able to get to sleep, lol. tried to hit the hay an hour ago and gave up. so while not up to my usual standards of inebriation by any means, i still am some what lubricated by those pesky little molecules of alcohol.

so they figured out why my arm ballooned up. freakin' blood clot of all things. and at forty-something years of age no less. after much hemming and hawing and testing and probing and sticking with needles they came to the resounding conclusion that there's no reason why i should have a clot. which is good i suppose. the only little growth they found on me from the ct scan was one of the lumps the injections gave me, so all's kewl. i get to take these wonderful little pills for a while and someday i'll get to stop and life will be just like it was before, except i'll still have this thing in my arm. they tell me it's safe though, lol.

so like it was an interesting test of buddhist philosophies for me i guess. facing your possible mortality i guess would get you to thinking i suppose. oddly enough for me it didn't really seem to matter all that much. in fact i found it rather interesting how others were far more concerned for my health than i was or am. granted i don't want to end up dead, but i don't think it would really bother me all that much if i knew it was coming. in any event it's not so i'm safe for the time being.

that said i can almost play guitar again which is kewl. gotta get some calluses back and some stretching on the right arm, but it will come. gonna try ballroom blitz and back in black i think. and maybe even break out that jellyfish and the blues dvd i've been avoiding for the last month, lol.

other things of note include the drastic reduction of soda in my diet and the resulting increase in iced tea (green and otherwise), which i suppose can't be all that bad. i've also had the drastic reduction in time spent with the girlfriend as she is now firmly planted in tacoma and my ass can't seem to find an easy (or hard) way to get there with a job. it hasn't bugged me that much until the last week or two since it's been the first time i've had my mind free of other worries and crap. ugh. missin her something fierce tonight i'm afraid. it'll all work out though, i'm pretty sure of that. which of course will be much to my mom's dismay as i finally leave this godforsaken state.

which brings me to the recent marches. you know, i'm pretty easy going for the most part, and don't usually get all that riled up over political crap as long as it don't affect my life personally. but god damn, what the hell is up with these stupid ass kids. protesting and shit is one thing, doing it on streets and freeways is quite another. i remember back in my days in high school some of the brothers leaving class to protest for a mt. luther king day. nothing like this happened though. i'd be willing to bet that just as it was in my day, these kids are more interested in fucking around on a school day than they are in the plight, real or imagined, of illegal immigrants.

now say what you will about these guys, they're pretty much here to stay. i'd also imagine they'd have a much, much easier time in this country and would encounter far less opposition towards their staying here if they'd try and at least fit into the culture and whatnot we have in this country. nothing's gonna piss off a redneck faster than some fool waving a mexican flag in america, and that includes license plates, piss on america stickers, and having to hear more spanish than english almost anywhere you go. of course there are still bastions of america left in california like orange county, but for the most part they're way farther north than los angeles.

but what are you gonna do about it anyway? build a wall? fuck we all know they know how to build tunnels. fine employers? they've had that law on the books forever and they still don't get enforced. cut off their benefits and medical care? well it would be just wrong to cut off medical care that's for sure .... kicking them out of everything else probably wouldn't be a bad idea. god knows we can afford to live in this state as it is without having to subsidize and help support these folks. other stupid little things should be fixed to boot, like not giving them preferences over citizens when it comes to financial aid, schooling, or just about anything. there's no way an american student should come behind or have to pay more tuition than the kid of an illegal immigrant. 

it'll all get hashed out i'm sure. i don't think there's really a critical mass on either side of this issue just yet, but it is getting close. my suggestion to our brothers (and like it or not they are our brothers and sisters) from south of the border would be to lay a little lower and try to fit in. you can keep your culture, your language, even your flag, but one thing americans don't like is having it all rubbed in their faces. given time america will assimilate and take just about everything that's offered to it, but you can be sure that american's don't want to be forced to accept anything.

short of that, it's all good. lost a friend at work this week, which sucks. nobody on the same cultural and intellectual wavelength to talk to anymore. second time in two years i've lost that god damnit. makes for a really boring work environment i tell you what. oh well, i'll send her a resounding ha-ha and end it for the night.

 i'm tired enough now i think to try and sleep again. the wine's kicking in i think. lol.

catch you next time.

senior snuff