the day before st. patricks day, friday night, around midnight

hi there!

been a while i know, but life's been pretty hectic and busy these last few months. i've found it incredibly hard to take much interest in certain things these last six months, and sadly, concerts, guitars, and this site have been included in that group. 

i am feeling a lot better tonight thought for whatever reason. maybe cuz i saw b this last weekend and got some good vibes from the universe back from an experiment she kind of turned me on to. the side of my brain responsible for physics, math and logic seems to be in another battle with the other side responsible for faith and happiness. i've seen enough of mr. dyer on tv and learning "the secret" seems to be pretty much the same thing. some of the other pseudo-physicists have left me kind of cold in the past, but the lessons of fred wolf notwithstanding i'm going to give this the old college try. you never know ... years of dark, gothic thinking haven't helped much, so maybe a head in the clouds approach would be more appropriate for a while.

hee hee.

did i say i saw b last weekend? that was kewl. a totally domestic weekend i'll admit with no makeup or music involved but it was a refreshing change from my life these past few months. next month though i'm off to the great northwest to take in some of that lovely rain. 

as for the rest of life ... just work and sleep for the most part sadly. things at the old salt mine have slowed down considerably, bringing a whole new set of worries, but at least i'm not killing myself slowly with stress and frustration, or at the very least, not as much of it. trying a new diet, trying to drink less, although i am currently sipping a little tonic tonight. i had fully intended to get fucked up tonight with some of the green fairy my friend at work got me on a vacation recently, but i'm thinking maybe it might be better tomorrow night, being green and all. got the sugar cubes ready in any event.

but there's one thing i really want to know ... what the fuck has happened to pbs? i remember being able to tune into one of the three pbs stations i can get on my lo-tech rabbit ears-enabled non-flat, non-large screen television and find something either scientific or at least interesting or even philosophical ... brain food in other words. what are they dishing up now? mtv for the 60-something crowd. i don't need to see another doo-wop act or some lame recreation of a band that disappeared and stopped creating new music 20 years ago. at least kiss has the good decency to put out new product. i'm very disappointed with pbs, and if i had ever had the decency to give them a pledge, i'd be asking for a refund. 

on the other hand, i did get a dvd with the old police squad on it, hee hee.

peace out ... and if you're lucky, you'll get another psychedelic missive tomorrow night.

anticipating the green fairy,

rivermastermoi