There was a beautiful sunset last night. The kind of sunset that makes you
glad to be alive and to be able to see it. Funny how just a bunch of
photons scattering against the atmosphere, smog, and clouds can make you
feel like that. There are other emotions that come to the forefront as
well ... but I'm not entirely clear as to whether it's the sunset or the
direction it forces you to look that's the cause. Not to mention ... never
mind. You've got to wonder .... if everything REALLY is interconnected ...
do those photons know their destiny ... do they know that after being
created in the bowels of the sun's thermonuclear furnace that they will
make the long journey to the surface of the sun and then, by pure chance,
be directed in the direction of the earth for the 11 minute (I think
that's right) journey. Do they know ... after doing their little dance in
our atmosphere and reflecting back until they excite some atom in the back
of my retina ... do they know the feelings and emotions they will
ultimately evoke? Why doesn't anyone ever look upon a sky like that and
say it's hideous? Why ... why ... why? I've been told many times
"Why" is not the question ... there shouldn't even be a question
in the first place ... just an appreciation of the journey. I've yet to
make Mr. Campbell proud.
The turning of the year ended up not being as entirely dismal as I had
figured it was going to be two months ago. Had some wonderful company for
a change and it ended up being downright pleasant. I can still feel the
undercurrent trying to pull me back out to sea, but at least I'm swimming
to shore again. Thank god for small miracles. I also discovered that I
really love the tone of hollow-body Gretsch guitars and Fender amps. If
only time and money would allow us to pursue all of our obsessions!
Anyway, it's time to go. Need to go shopping for the 10-day juice fast
I've agreed to participate in. Gonna grab me one last burger for the road
too. Thank god that mochas are not prohibited!
